Why is it that experiencing loss makes us stop to think about the would haves, could haves, should haves? We hear it all the time. Don’t wait until it’s too late. Live the way you want to live. Do what makes you happy. Foster the relationships that mean the most to you. Personally I’ve heard and known these statements to be true and wise yet living them is always different.
A few weeks ago my loving dad passed away. It was sudden, unexpected and has left a painful void in my heart ever since. I miss him everyday and think about him steadily throughout my days. I feel sudden urges to call and talk to him and then remember that it is no longer possible. Given another chance I would have called him more often, sent more random texts checking up on him, and visited him a thousand times more. I’m sure I’m not the only one yearning for more time with a loved one to re-do or add to already memorable moments.
I am hoping to use this challenging time as yet another reminder as to how precious life is. I would like to think that I already knew this but just needed another reminder. My dad’s ever present memory is a part of me moving forward and as a strong woman and new mother I need to be the best example for my daughter and practice what I preach. Life is about learning. I still haven’t come close to figuring it out but I’m willing to try. My confession is that I sometimes say or think that I’m busier than I really am. We should be able to find time for the people and things that matter most to us, so why is it sometimes so hard?
Well said!
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